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NumbSome may come
Some may go
Some may stay
Some may leave

Who will be there?
Who can I trust?
Should I tell?
Can I free myself from these inquiries?
Is it true overanalyzing kills you?
How do I know if I am?
Why is this feeling here again?

I’m looking into contaminated water
Just out of my reach I see a light
Once I reach out as far as I can,
And grab it,
It extinguishes

I cannot trust
I will not feel
I won’t think
I stopped breathing

Let me fall into the water,
And escape the world around me…
I am numb now.

HeldIf life was actually only our dreams
And in our dreams; reality wasn’t based off society
And society simply didn’t exist
Wouldn’t our “lives” hold so much more?

Torn and BeatenButterfly delicacies
Gentle in the whispering wind
Floating on the drift of their wings
A beautiful creature
Supported by such little weight
One turn can snap its wings
A change in events can turn it around
And a mighty storm can bring it
Crumpled
Torn
Beaten
Shredded
To
The
Ground

Care to Come In?If my life is the ground, then I am a graveyard
Dead fragments of memories mount themselves in the roots of my inside
Each one marked with a name, a place, a date
They are walked upon by broken souls, careless feet
Each is known by engraved letters
They’ll be there forever,
But new life always finds itself on the surface

An Open BookI don’t appreciate the lies
I want to know what you’re hiding
I want to see what lies beneath
What runs through your mind?

I don’t want your kindness anymore
If you choose to continue in this manner
My heart lies somewhere else
I’ve come to know the truth

All the words I couldn’t bring myself to say before
They are here now,
Open if you want them
I am done caring too much

What more have I got to lose?

A LongingThere is a place
I’ve been longing to reach
But I end up struggling
With reality
I try to take a needed breath in,
But it does not relieve my soul
I need my time…
They act as if
I’ve committed a crime
All I really wish to do
Is run away
I try to act as if I were fine,
But inside I am crying
This routine is become detrimentally repetitive,
I’m wasting my time trying
You can’t control me for eternity
You’re pushing me down,
And it will not be beneficial
If I’m trying to find my way,
To the place I long for

Immobile in the Frost of ConceptionI don’t understand
How someone you once knew so intimately
Can now be such a stranger
You can be standing inches apart
But it seem like miles
Unspoken words
Forgotten memories
Stretch across a thin line
Distance is an imperceptible thing in such a small world
Speak to me
Softly if you may
I want to hear your voice
I want to feel your electrifying touch
Oh shit….
Too late
You have been stolen, taken
I have been replaced
By someone whom I’d never thought would do such a thing
I am sensing a vile taste
I am done
I have given up
Strangers we shall be.

Maybe One Day, My Needs Will be of Meet.You are so unaware
That what my fingers are typing
Is all about you

Sometimes,
Just sometimes,
I hate you with a passion
But then I fall for your everlasting kindness,
Once again

It is so hard to sustain an even balance
Of sanity
Your obliviousness hurts me beyond your knowledge
Your compulsiveness alone,
Brings me to my knees in painful anguish

I should wish for you
Not to ignore me when I need you most
When you do,
It creeps through every particle in my body,
And leaves another irremovable scar
An irreplaceable scar

You initiate a hurt like none I have known before
I thought I could trust you?

My tears drop silently,
To the cold cement

Maroon SoilA familiar outline
Came undone, smudged out of normalcy
The wings of a once perfect butterfly are washed away
Gone home to soil
Buried under seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years
Crushed under the weight of red

Roots begin to grow out its tattered body
Reach far under, implant themselves
Left there to remember forever
To trigger the earned feelings of guilt & shame
A story left with deep indents.

Bars of a Madman's CageI hear no more of your selfish insults
My standards are not like with yours
In fact I am not you
But only myself
So leave me alone
Your words only cause me to harden
I keep anger hostage
Left dark & cold in a cage locked deep within
I wish I could snap & show you
What you really are to me
But of course I am too weak on the inside
Too vulnerable to a look that could kill
My cage is only so big
Someday it will bend & break
You will be left in tears
With a reputation to mend
Karma is a satisfying bitch
Watch your back,
Keep your eyes wide open
Someday revenge will plot itself
I will be free of your untrained reigns!
Until that day come,
I will s

New DesolationI’m so alone
So afraid
So done
So confused…
I have not a clue
What is happening…
All I know is I cannot stand the image
Of the tired eyes reflecting back at me
In the murky waters
In which I so desperately wish
To drown in
The salty reminders don’t come to a halt
They continue to drip silently
Down the frame of my sagging skin
Into the cracking lips placed on my face
Nothing seems to want to go the way I want
Nothing is remaining in my possession
The world is cracking
And so is my soul
And everything that had once belonged to me
It is odd
That my new problem is the inability to stop the tears
Instead of wishing for t

UnavaliableI simply do not understand
How one can be so free-going,
Talkative & friendly
Social butterflies,
Fluttering your wide wings,
Drifting from place to place
Comfortable in an environment full of beings
Whether you know them or not,
You will open up
And reveal your innermost personality

I cannot comprehend such actions
I, myself, like to hide away
Society provides too much of a burden
Human stupidity drowns out my own reasonable thoughts
I’d rather stray away
I’d rather be safe in my own body
Comfortable with the music in my ears,
And the books I love to drown myself in

So leave me be in my zone of comfort
I can survive on my own
I

Once Upon a TimeOnce looked up to,
Now faced down
Stuck in the hills of a valley,
In a faraway town

Unknown future,
Unsure fate
Decisions are made
Causing his heart to fade

Upturned career
Wishing success was near
But nothing done to strive
Procrastination settlement obvious to the human eye

Drunken nights
Fading black on wasted nights
Swept away
From a forgotten successful path

Failing miserably
What road will he take?
Oh, how I wish he could see
All he’s done to me

Influence plays a great role
In the lives of many young children
His mind is blind to that fact,
And soon enough this will bite him in the ass

Good luck in life brother,
I wish you t

My Need for ConfirmationI don’t want promises anymore
I want confirmation, evidence you will keep your sworn word
Promises remain empty, useless
Broken, shattered to pieces
Promises leave a person heartbroken, unbelieving
Kills their trust, destroys it all
Promises always leave hesitation
They always appear true, but are confirmed false
Promises mean hurt
And I don’t want to be hurt anymore…

Increase in MistrustI let go of the past,
And set my mind free
Of the pain I had to endure
I gave you a chance,
I thought you had deserved,
The blessing of my forgiveness
But I realized,
Patterns had not been recycled into an increasing void
I see what is happening
Do not deny what has been done
And is still happening
For your face reveals all that I know
Stay a distance away from me
I trust you no longer

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Invalid ScrutinyThat warm hold
The one where you can feel your hearts beating against one another
And where your arms are holding on for dear life
You just feel so much better,
Lifted ten feet off of solid ground
All sadness aside, happiness focused on the body so close to yours…
They are meant for all
Not just couples, not just friends, not just parents
Sincere hugs like that were created for a reason
Don’t scrutinize one for needing a hug from an elder still in youth

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by ~WhereICallHome, Dec 3, 2012, 5:41:47 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

What am I waiting for?
Suspense builds & builds
Until the walls come crumbling down
My inner-self is left tattered & torn
I am unavailable
To the world, surrounding features, & figures
I am shielded
My shield made of masks of many years,
Tears of many years,
Experiences from time’s grasp.
It cannot be broken.
I am closed.
I am concealed.
You cannot find me here.
My silent screams will lead you astray.
Do not be fooled!
I really do wish for a shoulder to cry on.
I really am screaming in unnoticed agony
My eyes are glazed over,
Do not be fooled by the shells of “strength” covering the contrasting blue
Arms to hold me,
And only hold me,
No questions asked
Would be a blessing in midst of battle
But I would be a statue,
Immobile in a human body
Stone makes up my entirety.
Bring a hammer to my head,
I will shatter.

Shatterby ~WhereICallHome

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

~NayaSelenia Dec 16, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

~WhereICallHome Dec 17, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

^_^

~93-bananas Dec 12, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

why when i look into your poems they look like a mirror and reflect perfectly an image of a not so perfect me?

~WhereICallHome Dec 13, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Pft you're perfffff!!! And idk

Maybe I can read minds

~sumersela Dec 6, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

strange how a few of your poems remind me much of me

seems were not so different i suppose

love your poems ^^

~WhereICallHome Dec 6, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I told youuuuuuu!!!!(:
Thanks!

~sumersela Dec 6, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

your welcome, but once again, thank YOU ^^

~XxBaileyRxX Dec 4, 2012 Writer

Really good I can feel your agony

~WhereICallHome Dec 4, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Thanks :3 I only hope I can relate my emotions! Welcome to dA by the way! If you want, "watch" my page & you get messages for when I put a new poem up! I watched you! I'm already in love with your work!

~XxBaileyRxX Dec 4, 2012 Writer

Aw thankyou!!! I actually had an account on here for my photography at one time but this account is for my poetry which I like wayyyyyy more lol I'm never on my other account haha yea I watched you so it's all good!^-^!

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