And Yet I Only See Blood and Darkness

If you ask what I am doing in the late hours of night
This is where my mind shall rest:
If I cannot be lifeless
I will be gone on the inside
And no one can convince me of otherwise doing
I have given up
Given in
The tables have turned & I have now thrown myself in the opposite direction
This tug-of-war has weakened me
And no matter how long & hard your pleas may echo
My brain has set on inward comatose

What I have woken up to doing
What my eyes have been seeing
What my ears have been hearing
What my instincts have led me to believe…
All point to the obvious I have truly gone insane

An insane person belongs away from all
So why not escape from the view of all’s eyes
I will still remain in your sight
It is my emotions & feelings that are not visible
Because they will not be there
I am not turning numb
Numbness is still a sensation
I am no longer letting any emotions reside in me at all

It will be better for you won’t it?